Odyssey: A Long Wandering and Eventful Journey

Cheating is a big issue in relationship causing boomerang if one-sided does. Cheater, betrayer, traitor, or whatever you name it, are never ever be wanted. There is no space for them who don’t understand what exactly commitment is. I’m kind of person who date someone to marry.   Once I determine, I’m eager to fight for anything to keep the relationship going. I choose him, but I cheated on him.             I tell this not to attract you to do the same thing, yet some lessons may be learnt. I won’t show everything in the detail. None of them are remembered. I just made mistake and realized I was totally wrong. People oftentimes do mistake, but I think this one can’t be forgotten. Who wants to be unappreciated, neglected, and unwanted? No one. Stupidly, I came across and let someone went in. You have to have an idea the difference between being nice and flirting. I thought he was trying to be nice as a human being, but it wa...

2018 Meski tak begitu besar, hanya 3 x 4 meter 2 dengan satu jendela di sisi pojoknya, tempat ini selalu menyimpan energi dahsyat, nyaman sekali. Karenanya, aku tidak mampu beranjak jauh, melihat bagaimana semesta semestinya bergerak. Aku kehilangan banyak proses untuk tumbuh, apalagi usiaku sudah kepala dua. Banyak hal yang harus digali namun aku memilih untuk mengunci diri. Disaat yang lain menggebu-gebu atas apa yang ingin diraih, aku masih saja berdiam diri dengan hati yang mengeras. Bicara tentang tujuan hidup? Ah, pikiranku jauh akan hal itu. Memkirkan hal-hal kecil saja belum tentu becus. Pikiranku sempit terlebih aku dikelilingi tembok yang menyekatku seolah-olah mengurung apa yang harus aku perjuangkan. This was my comfort zone and I loved it . Di penghujung tahun 2018, aku menyadari satu hal; I didn’t move at all but time always rotates. Selama setahun penuh aku hidup diatas kenyamanan. Aku merasa nikmat namun kosong, tidak ada hal yang bisa kubagi untuk orang lain...