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Have You Cheated on Someone? #1

Cheating is a big issue in relationship causing boomerang if one-sided does. Cheater, betrayer, traitor, or whatever you name it, are never ever be wanted. There is no space for them who don’t understand what exactly commitment is. I’m kind of person who date someone to marry.  Once I determine, I’m eager to fight for anything to keep the relationship going. I choose him, but I cheated on him.
            I tell this not to attract you to do the same thing, yet some lessons may be learnt. I won’t show everything in the detail. None of them are remembered. I just made mistake and realized I was totally wrong. People oftentimes do mistake, but I think this one can’t be forgotten. Who wants to be unappreciated, neglected, and unwanted? No one. Stupidly, I came across and let someone went in. You have to have an idea the difference between being nice and flirting. I thought he was trying to be nice as a human being, but it was inevitable. I fully regret why we were met by the chance. No, there is no excuse to blame anyone. My boyfriend is more than enough.  I can find love and acceptance with him. It’s only about me who was heartless. Actually, with the wrong one, a lot of lessons were learnt. It is sort of blessing, but again better you avoid it.
            Instead of keeping it secret, I made up a plan to tell the truth. I mean, I’m not good at hiding something. I want him to know all the stories from me as it should be. I’m vastly guilty.  The worst one, breaking up, might be happened, but I still screwed up. For me, it is better to be honest even though there is dreary day awaits than living with a lie. Someone once said, the worst truth is better than the best lie. I was ready for the worst one, at least I’ve tried to be genuine. For some cases, cheating may sound good because they can finally escape or realize that there will be people out there who want and love them more than their partner. What I did wasn’t an escape as he profoundly loves me no matter who I am, despite my highs and lows, my flaws and cracks. I still feel like a pretty bad person for doing it, but I won’t be ashamed again. I’ll be placing myself in the place where I will always be there for him through his ups and downs, sticking by with him rather than backing off.  I want to be a keeper. Let's be a keeper for people who definitely deserve. 

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