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A Letter to My Ex #2


            Your existence was priceless as you beautifully accepted me with all your heart. I was afraid to lose you. I couldn’t imagine what life would be without you. Instead of blaming, I had to believe the fact that we were good but weren’t meant for each other. I felt like my whole entire life came crashing down. We had such good memories along with the future dreams that unfortunately weren’t going to be happened. I was regretful for not making you stay. I should be the one who toughly kept everything up.  It ultimately made me give up because you quickly run away. You decided to leave me. Since that, we didn’t have a second to explain to know what the reason was. We have been strangers for years. It’s really fantastic how fast someone who frequently brought happiness became a stranger.
            I just want to say that I haven’t forgot you. The rough things we’d been through are such meaningful experiences that I’ve been grateful for. Your imperfectness makes me grow, indeed. I am much more stronger than I was before and I thank you for that. I hated the idea of not having you in my life, but at the end of the day I can be even happier without you. I couldn’t save my relationship, but at least I’d saved me, myself. You were not a mistake yet a lesson. Thank you.

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