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My Hardest Goodbye

Kedah, 15 September 2019



Dear Polytechnic Tuanku Sultanah Bahiyah,

            I never forgot the moment when I set my foot on the ground at the first time. Everything was different. Many stairs, buildings with many floors, and long corridor welcomed me as they looked at me strangely. It was really hard walking around to reach one place to another place but this scene will be missed, indeed. Something that I complained turned out into a memorable part that couldn’t be forgotten, my heart knew that you were the best place to share with. When walking through corridor, I met new friends as we immediately had a great relationship. They were not shy to just say hello and they were excited approaching me, having a conversation; how friendly they are. We shared our thoughts, culture, and language as we gradually made jokes. I had such great parents in Polytechnic Tuanku Sultanah Bahiyah. Being away from home didn’t mean that I was alone. I had new family as the lecturers were really care asking my condition every single time, the buddies always took care of me going to our room just to make sure that I was totally fine. I just felt like home. For the food and drink, Ayam Kunyit and Teh Ice will be missed for sure. I even ate them 3 days in a row. As a human being, I definitely made mistakes. I had been a bit late for attending an event, and others that might not fit your expectation.  Having you in my life, even in a short time, was a beautiful gift. I learnt that I shouldn’t be tripped in my own thought, perspective, and feeling. World is wide. I need to go abroad, open my mind, look at another chance, life, and adventure since I realized that I was sort of debris who was small which I had to explore myself to be bigger. Knowing you meant knowing a new world which automatically made me better.  You are beyond my expectation; you are truly amazing. You were such a nice place with the best people. Thank you so much for being a great family who gave positive vibes, supported me on my ups and downs. Thank you for being a place where I could train myself to be independent, strong, and passionate. Time flew so fast and finally I was gone. I will miss all moments; sad, happy, tired, angry, and crazy. I believed we didn’t meet just for nothing, you came to color my days, gave me different perspective to understand what life was. Keep flying high, PTSB! See you when I see you, I don’t know when, hope God will unite us again. We might be so far, but the memories will never die. 

Sincerely, 


Your big fan who really want to be back

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